I need to hydrate my life again. I’m not happy. There’s more cons an pros right now. I just want to give up and start over but at the sometime I want everything to stay the same. I keep wishing I could get my life back from when I was 18. When I still lived at home and I only had to work if I wanted something extra. Now I have to work to live. I know this was going to come one day but I’m not ready. I haven’t gone to school yet. I’m so frustrated and I’m taking it out on people who I love. I’m pushing the wrong people away. I don’t want to lose them.